Am i under a spell ?

My friend, Jen, asked me 

:" If you knew your boyfriend has many one night stand girls outside, do you mind?" 

I took this question very seriously, I do not know what to answer, should i answer :" YES! OF COURSE!" like every girl would say? Or.... should i say NO ???

I don't know what's my answer is... because I'm kindda facing the same situation? But he's not my boy larh...

I don't know what's on my mind because I'm out of my mind ! Before i started to have feelings on him, i already knew that he is that kind of playboy patterned guy and i don't mind about it. So... i definitely would not mind if he does.Felt he is so honest to me. Like one time i asked him what is the relationship btw the girl. He said very closed friends that they can even sleep tgt. Well, sometimes things are blur is good enough to tell out the truth. I don't know what's my feeling after seeing a post saying that he won't be honest in these kind of stuff, I just feel that this is already very honest to me. Should i be happy ? LOL Since we met, he gave me a feeling that he is a very nice guy who is so brave to face all life consequences and the guy i can really trust. Actually... i don't know if i have feelings on him. I just know he is someone who is very special to me. He taught me alot of stuff.

But one thing i know for sure is, 

1. I have butterflies in my stomach when he is beside me
2. I love being with him and i became from an empty vessels which makes the most noise. 
3. I enjoy when he talks to me about universe, dinosaurs, galaxies, stars, life's cycle, his problems...etc. 
4. I feel cloud nine, even counting down, to meet up with him. 
5. I can't get mad on him, even if i do, it's just once in a blue moon and, in a jiffy, he could make me smile back. 
6. My wechat has a darning problem which any incoming message, it won't notify me. I always pressed in my wechat account, hopping that there will be a pop up message from him. Of course there will be disappointments. 
7. Risking myself out to meet up with him because i wasn't allow to go out.

I remembered that day, he told me he is going out, latest by 2am he would be back. I was like " go larh go larh", honestly i don't mind. I did woke up in 2am, but i found out that he isn't back yet. Well, i already did assumed that maybe he is drunk or having fun with his girlfriends. So i didn't wanted to call him cause he should know what to do as he isn't a child anymore. I tried to sleep till 5am, then i woke up, still no sign of the guy i wanted to see. I'm worried because he faced incidents and accidents before, but i did not think that much cause the day is still dark. My dad also 5am back larh. I forced myself to sleep again while waiting for the sun to rise. I tried calling him a few times, but there was no answer. I thought something could have happened to him. But i think it in a positive way where i look things at tinted glasses. "Maybe he isn't awake" so i waited till 9am. Called him tons of times, but there was no answer too. Silent mode i guess? But i'm very worried already, i really thought that he faced accidents or what. I'm so so so mad until he replied that he was blackout last night that he went to a friend's house to sleep. I'm mad, thinking that if he have that energy to drive to his friend's house to sleep why not just text me that he will be back in the morning ? I know it's my fault that i just walked away. I'm so worry that i'm just so maddddd that i said to myself that i will not see him ever ever ever again !!! hahaha But after i went off, i start thinking, his fridge is empty, he should be hungry ? Did bring him his breakfast and just went off now. I'm so crazy....

Honestly, there's still madness inside of me. Missing him :(